I dont understand anymore, i just dont....i am so happy and very grateful for all that i have but i think right now i am feeling so angry and upset that i could just go away somewhere and never come back.....its like all my life my mom has bowed down to my step-dad and still does to this day when all he that he really is, is a big asshole. They try so hard to be "perfect" , they put up this huge fake image like they are just the best people and then when we get behind closed doors its all bitching because we arent fucking good enough....i constantly sit in my room with the radio up just so i dont have to hear them bitch about us not washing a dish because they are to fucking lazy to do it themselves so instead they make their kids do it...one of these days things are going to change....theyre not perfect and they never will be and when karma comes back and bites them in the ass....they will think about how it used to be and how they shouldve treated their kids a little bit better...i will never be like them, i will not let myself get to be to where im always hateful or rude...it will be over soon.....and still after all that it has been, i can manage to smile.....i can hold my tears back